Why?

They say that sometimes, it's not the person you miss, but the feeling you had when you were with them. But whyyyyyyy. Why do I still miss you every day? Why can't I forget you? Why can't I not be completely okay? Why do I keep on hurting? Why can't I move on from what happened to us? Why can't I just accept the fact that everything's changed and it will never go back to how it used to be? Why do you keep on crossing my mind every day? Why can't I just erase all the memories we had so that nothing will remind me of you anymore? Why can't I do it? WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! Damn you. Damn you for making me feel this way. It's almost a year. Funny how our lives are completely different now. Waaaay different compared to when we still have each other in our lives.

Soberday. :)

Today, after work, Kaye and I invaded Millete's house. Hihihi. We had a great time singing all the songs we like since the videoke was unlimited. We also drank 2 bottles of Vodka Cruiser..haha..which by the way just tasted like soda. Played with Aji,and enjoyed all afternoon laughing. It was indeed a great day. It always feels good to spend time once in a while with your great friends.:)

Again.

I'm doing it again. I'm waiting. expecting.
Ugh. I hate it! When will I ever learn to stop and just let things happen?
Why can't I control myself most especially when I like someone?
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
I hate this feeling. That's why I always get disappointed,
coz I do it over and over again.
Puhleaseeee!!!
I'm afraid to get hurt again.:(

About you again?

I think I'm in the mood to write today. It's my third blog for the day and I don't care. I guess I just missed writing.

Anyway. As much as I avoid writing something about him, I just couldn't help it.
There's a part of me that wants to see him. Talk to him. You know, just to clear things out. There are a lot of questions hanging in my head. And sometimes, they just drive me insane. All I need are answers from him. I want to understand why what happened, happened. But I guess, all he can give me is silence.

There's also a part of me that doesn't want to see him ever again, nor talk to him.
Really. There are those moments that whenever I think about him, I don't even know what to feel. Sometimes, it makes me angry, but sometimes, it also breaks my heart knowing we're not friends anymore.

There's another part that's also hoping that he would make an effort or find time to talk to me. Explain his side. Tell me his side of the story. Coz if I'm really that important to him, he would move mountains to get us back in each other's life again. But, I don't see any effort. That's the problem. He never went out there to fight for me. For us. For our friendship. He just watched them all drift away. He let go of me. That's what I couldn't accept. THat's how I felt that's why, even up to now, I still couldn't move on completely. He let go of me. That only man I have loved didn't fight for me. That really sucks big time.

I don't know if our paths would cross again. But anyway, if it will, then, ah, eh, I don't know what to do. Haha. I don't know if I could even afford to say hi, or even smile at him. Well, come what may. Let's see what happens.

Something stupid.

It was only today that I realized, blocking someone on Facebook also removes them from your friends' list. Thus, unfriending them automatically. Wahahah! Oh man. It only goes to show, I was the one who unfriended you. Dang. When all this time, I thought, you were the one who erased me from your list. How stupid could I be. Ughhh. And to think, I was that upset before coz I thought you unfriended me, only to realize now, it was my fault why I was removed from your friends' list. And that's because, I blocked you before. Hahahahahahhahaha. Gosh. Now, all I could do is to laugh at my stupid mistake.
I wonder how you felt when you found out were not friends anymore on Facebook.
Well, it's okay with me, since we're not really friends anymore even in real life. So, what's the big deal right?

Update.

Well, last Wednesday, I had the chance to be on TV again. hehe.
Actually, I didn't really expect it would be that fast, coz Ingrid just told me that I would sing again on the show on Monday night. At first, I didn't want to. Coz I wasn't prepared,like, I didn't have any song to sing yet, and no clothes to wear. lol. But then, I realized that, why not? I already sang on TV before, so why not do it again right? It's not that bad to share your talent to everyone. So there,I agreed, even though I was alone and had no guitarist with me.

I decided to sing "To be with you". And good thing, when I went shopping at ukay ukay a day before my TV guesting, I saw a shirt that fits me really well, and even matches my scarf. So, with my rubber shoe-heels,guitar, and confidence, I appeared on TV once again.

I get flattered when people tell me they saw me on TV. Hehe. Not that I'm dreaming to be that popular, but it feels good when people recognize you and your talent. So there. :) Happy me!:)

Aha. Yesterday, I finally had the chance to meet my crush. WAAAAH! Hahahaha.
And guess what he told me?
"Pwede pa-autograph? Napanood kasi kita sa TV the other day."
I almost fainted!Hahahahahahaha... I didn't expect he would wake up that early to see me. Anyway, I was happy. really happy. :) He's so cute! ^___^
I hope I could see him again. And get the chance to know him more. :)))))

Okay. that's all for now. Need to go back to work again and compute the grades of my students for the 3rd grading. Oh man. I'm so lazzzzy...

What's on my mind today.

Just because someone doesn't love you doesn't mean you have to forget all the other people who do. you see, sometimes ,we put too much time and effort making one person like us, not noticing the others who are willing to love us even without doing anything.

So, if a person treats you like trash, it's time to throw them away in your life. Don't waste that space to someone who doesn't see your worth, when in fact, you can alot that place to a person who realize your value.

Life's just like that. Not everyone we love will also love as back, or love us as much as we love them. Sometimes, we couldn't do anything but just face it and deal with it.

Never think you're alone, coz it happens to everyone anyway.

My day!

Last Thursday was one of my memorable birthdays ever. My pre-birthday wish was fulfilled, which was to have a children's party. I was really really happy! It's one of the days I'll never forget.

Even months before my birthday, I've already been thinking throwing a party in school. And even before I worked in Remnant, I really wanted to have a children's party. But luckily, I was given the job as a school nurse, so having a children's party is not that impossible at all.

But there was one problem. After the Christmas vacation, I only had maybe around 800 pesos as my salary because I didn't go to work for two weeks to enjoy the holidays. So I was thinking, how can I have a grand party if I didn't have the money? I really prayed so hard for a blessing to arrive days before my birthday so that I can prepare.

So a week before my birthday, I sent Tita Jude a message and gave her some recent updates about the happenings in our lives, about my work, etc. And I really jumped out of joy when I read her reply. She sent me money as a birthday present. I was totally relieved. I told myself, "Now, I can make it happen!".

A week before my birthday, I was busy looking for some food to prepare in school, and at the same time, working on my budget. I didn't care if I'm gonna spend all of the money that Tita Jude sent me. For me, it was more than money. It was creating another moment to remember. And so, finally, I was ready.

Even days before my birthday, my dear students were already greeting me, and giving me balloons. I was really touched. They're very sweet. Who could resist those little darlings? :)

And so, my birthday came. Wearing my beautiful dress and boots, I went to work with a big smile on my face.When I arrived, the whole school greeted me. Every one whom I came across with, greeted me a Happy Birthday! I felt really special on that day. Before lunch, the parents and teachers helped me prepare the food. And after singing the birthday song, making a birthday wish and blowing my birthday candles, we distributed the food to all of the students. Everyone was invited to my party since there was a lot of food. After that, many students gave me a birthday card which they personally made. Some of them gave me a present. And T.Fred,T.Clyde,and T.Murphy gave me two bottles of wine. Oh, even Seoyoung, who was my student before, sent me a birthday package which I received a day before my birthday. She gave me a birthday card, two pair of really cute socks and a hairpin.

After work, the three boys drove me home. Then, Ate bought me a chocolate cake.

Even my facebook wall was flooded with birthday greetings from all of the people close to my heart. The day after my birthday, some students gave me letters and one parent even made a blueberry cheesecake for me. It was really soooo delicious! My dear pareng Kaye also gave me a box of crema de fruta.

It was really one of my most unforgettable birthdays ever. I felt all the love in the world. I'm so thankful to everyone who made me really special and feel appreciated during that day. I would always relive those moments. Even my students' messages on their birthday cards that they gave me made me teary-eyed. It feels so good knowing how much they love me as much as I love them. I'm truly blessed to have all these people around me who love and care for me.

As I've said in my status post in Facebook, I really Thank the Lord for another year that He has given me to continue living, loving and learning.

I'm ready to face another year in my life. Whatever challenges are there, I know I'm ready to face them all.

Gosh. But I still can't believe I'm already 23. Coz it seems like, I'm stuck with my teenage years. Hahahaha ^_^

Anyway, age is just a number right?. :D

First in 2012

OMG. Sorry. I forgot again. Haha.
OKay, I told you I'll try to update my blog everyday right?So yeah..

In the morning of New Year's Eve, I traveled alone to Pampanga at 3:30 and arrived there at 9AM. I took a rest, played with Hal, shared stories with Ate Flei and Ate Tam, then ate spaghetti and salad for dinner. Before midnight, Ate Gale arrived with Ampung and Bibing. We then lit up the fountain..After that, since I was so tired, I slept at past midnight.

Jan 1,2012 was our reunion. Everyone arrived after lunch. Then Kuya Jet and Ate Lei arrived with Baby Miggy. I was so excited to see my little pamangkin! Weee. There were lots of food on the table that I couldn't help myself but eat too much again. Then around 3pm, Tito Rodel came to fetch Kuya Jet and he told me to come with them. I spent the night at the Gopez Residence. Ate a lot again. BTW, I loveeeed eating the sherbet! I missed it coz there's none in Baguio. I almost consumed all of it. Haha. Good thing I was able to control myself. :)

In the morning, I played with Bebe Miggy, ate delicious breakfast, then sang almost 50 songs.. Yeah. no kidding. maybe even more than 50 songs in Magic Sing. Good thing my voice was in good condition that I could sing all of the songs that I like.

At around 2:30, Kuya Jet, Kuya Aaron and I headed to Sta.Lucia to get my stuff. I bid short goodbye to Maw,Bapa,Ching Tam, the two boys and Hal. Before we went to Robinson's, we dropped by first at Aurely's to buy pasalubong.

When we arrived at Robinson's, I was about to get hopeless coz there were lots of passengers waiting for a bus.I thought I couldn't get a bus, but good thing the guy from Victory reassured that a bus going to Baguio is coming. And so we waited.

When the bus arrived, it was full, but I had no choice so I rode in. From Robinson's to Tarlac, I was on my feet. But it was okay for me since I already got used to being on my feet for a long time. Talk about ER experience.lol. I was surprised and touched when the man beside me offered his seat. That was when I realize the such people still exist! Haha. Coz I thought I was gonna be standing all the time. So there. I arrived in Baguio at past 11, then at 12mn, I dozed off.

Today, I was so early in school. Good thing! Coz when I arrived at the clinic, it was really a mess. At least I had spare time to clean up for a bit. Oh. I really missed everyone in Remnant. Honestly..most especially the kids. They really have a special spot in my heart so not being able to see them for two weeks made me really miss them. After work, I got my salary. I really thought that I wouldn't be getting any, coz I didn't go to work for two weeks. But God is good. At least, I still received just enough amount to get me by until my next payday.Haha.

On my way home, together with the three boys, we went to SM and accompanied T.Murphy in paying the internet bill at Smart. Then after that,I went to Skyworld and looked for a jacket since it's really getting cold nowadays, but had no luck in looking for a design I like. T_T Anyway, after that, I went home.

Now, it's around 10 pm and I'm feeling a little sleepy. Maybe I'll go to bed in an hour. After this blog, I'll just fix my clothes that I'm gonna be wearing for tomorrow's work. Ok. Ta-ta for now! See you later aligator! :)

UPDATE!

Whoah. It's been months since I updated this blog.
And you know what, a LOT of things happened since I last wrote an entry here.

Wait, lemme just sum up all the things that happened this year. I'll try my best to put them in chronological order. Haha.

Hmm. January.

There, I celebrated my 22nd birthday. Went to church, then had dinner at Hodori with ate and kuya. Then, during the weekend, I went out with Carlo. We had early dinner at The Old Spaghetti House. Then after that, we attended a mass at Cathedral. We went home then he handed me his gift, a T-shirt from Arrow. I remember,composing a song that night entitled "Sana Pwede". It's posted on facebook. There.

2 days after, I went to Manila. Was supposed to have an interview with an employer, only to find out that the one I was texting wasn't really from the agency. I was misinformed! Ugh. So there, I didn't meet up with her/them. Arrived at around 5-6am maybe, then I waited for Ate and Kuya Brian at the terminal in Pasay or Cubao, I think. Had my first ride at the LRT. Then, went to some agency to apply. I submitted all the needed documents then they asked me to come back the day after for the medical exam. Stayed at ate Em's place.

The next day, I decided not to pursue with the application, so I withdrew all my documents. Then,I just stayed at Ate Em's place and played with Erica. The last day in Manila, after ate finished doing her business at the agency, we went at Robinson's. Had dinner at Shakeys. Bought Krispy Kreme for pasalubong, Rode a crowded LRT again, walked our way to the bus station, then headed home to Baguio.

The day after, I delivered a box of Krispy Kreme to Ate Minnie, then gave the other box to Carlo's mom. Hmm. There.

February.

Actually, around late January and early Feb, I was busy looking for a job. I applied at MMS for the position of Clinical Instructor. I even applied at ABS-CBN, haha, and had my first VTR. Also, it was early Feb when we found out that Ate Lei was preggy. :) Hmm. I think it was a Friday when I went to ABS-CBN for my VTR, then in the afternoon, that's when Carlo and I had a fight.

We had no communication for a week. I sent him a text message on a Saturday afternoon saying I was sorry, but received no reply.

I spent my Valentines Day alone. I decided to go out at that time. I ate alone at Wham Burger. Strolled a bit at SM, then decided to just go home.

I dunno if it was 2nd or 3rd week of Feb when I had my lecture demo at MMS. Aha. I remember, it was Panagbenga at that time. The demo went pretty well. Thank God.

March

Ate Minnie asked me to be a substitute teacher for a week. I agreed since I wasn't doing anything at that moment. And, I had no money left so I really needed a sideline. Hehe. Then, that moment, there was even a strong earthquake. I think this was also the time when Japan has been shook by the strong earthquake and tsunami.

Had my last facebook chat with Carlo. After that, I haven't heard from him anymore.

Hmm. I think it was last week of March when I received a message from MMS telling me to attend the orientation. Out of all the applicants, there were only 4 of us who got hired. Lucky me I guess. :) But I also believed I deserve the job. I was so happy.

April

It was around second or third week of April when I started my job as a Clinical Instructor at MMS. Then, in the afternoon and evening, I had my online teaching job at SOESL. See how hardworking I was at that time?! Haha..

It was also this month when Carlo deactivated his Facebook account. So yeah, we had zero communication since then.

Oh! I couldn't remember the exact date, but this was also month when Millete, Kaye and I went to Manila for the Lakbay Aral trip. We went to Resorts World Casino, Baclaran church, Lights and Sound Museum, and my most awaited destination-- Star City. I super enjoyed it! :)

May

Kuya's wedding in Pampanga. I was the wedding singer/host in the event. Love this day! ♥ Lola, Tito Ray, Ate April, Ate Mitch, Shari, Kuya Melvin and Avien were there. After the wedding, I stayed in Sta. Lucia, then went home to Baguio.

June.

Honestly, I really couldn't remember what happened during this month. Haha. Nothing special. Nothing memorable springs to my mind.

July.

All of a sudden, I received at text from Remnant Intl.College (where I submitted an application September of 2010), that they are in need of a school nurse, thus, telling me to come for an interview. I wasn't really expecting it, but I told myself I'm just gonna give it a try.

I think it was July 19.Monday. I arrived there wearing my white uniform. I had an interview with the guidance counselor, and the administrator. Then, that was the time Sir James asked me to come back the day after for my sample demo. So, Tuesday, I had my sample lecture demo to the Grade 4 students, and some of the high school students. At the end of it, it was already the contract signing. During that time, I was so overwhelmed because I wasn't really expecting to get the job. But I did.

August.

Uhmm. Working at Remnant as a school nurse, then after work, I was also working as a part-time online tutor at SOESL. So from 7:30am- 11 PM, I was working. Superwoman me.

September.

This was the time I left SOESL to focus on my job as a school nurse at Remnant.
Enjoyed celebrating the Science and Math Day in school. I missed these kinds of school activities. They even let me sing in front of everyone. Wehew. Good thing I'm always ready with my songs. Haha..

October.

My first time to hit off the gym in preparation for my performance in the Philippine Remnant Conference to be held on the first week of November. Then, after class, was busy practicing with Sir Murphy,Sir Fred and Sir Clyde at the chapel. After work, I would always go straight at SM to workout. In fairness,all of my hard work at the gym really paid off. Haha.

November.

PRC was held on Nov 1-3. During the first night, I performed in front of everyone with my little black sexy dress. Haha. I sang Hosanna and We are the Reason.
2nd day, it was my most-awaited performance in SM City Baguio. Wipee! :)
Then, 3rd day, hmm..nothing special happened.Hehe.

Then, on Nov.15, well, it was HIS birthday. I wasn't really planning to greet him. But then, there's nothing wrong with making someone happy on their birthday thru a simple greeting right? So there, the kind me sent him a text message greeting him a Happy Birthday. He replied though. He said, "Thank you much :)". THat's all.
Ahuh.

Oh, then we had our Intramurals. I played basketball and volleyball. We lost in the volleyball match against the college students, but we won in the basketball game anyway. Then, I performed once again in front of everyone. Haha. Hmm. What else? Well.. THat's all.

December.

Well, I couldn't really recall all of the things that happened this month, but I'll try my best to account everything here.

I attended Aylmer's graduation at Golden Pine Hotel, where I also performed.
Hmm. Then, I was also busy practicing during the 2nd week of December for my performance at the Christmas program in school, at the chapel and at BSU.
We even had our practices at KM5. Somewhere over there. Haha.

Dec.16th was the Christmas program. After that,we had our Christmas party with the kids. I celebrated with the Grade 4 students. Then at lunch, we played games.In the afternoon was the Christmas party with the teachers, then after that, we had our practice again at KM5.

On Dec.18th, had our performance at the chapel then, after that, we headed straight to BSU for the concert.

Ugh. Bad memory. I barely remember things that happened a week before Christmas. Hmm. Well, let's just go straight to Christmas Day then.

On Dec 23rd, I slept at Tito Ray's house. On Christmas eve, I went home first to change clothes, then went to lola's house for the early dinner. Then we went to Tam-awan for the Noche Buena. Received a pair of slippers from Ate April, Gift Certificate from Ate Mitch, a bag from Tam and 1k from Tita Letty. Also slept there that night.

Oh yeah, the night before Christmas ended, HE sent me a message greeting me a Merry Christmas. I replied. Then received no reply. Made me want to regret sending him a message again. Ugh. BUt anyway, I do appreciate his effort to greet me, coz honestly, I really didn't have any plans of greeting him Merry Christmas. I dunno. I just don't have any plans of sending him a message at all. EVER. But yeah, I still did. Ugh. Christmas effect. Forgive and Forget crap. So done with it.

The day after Christmas,I went to Remnant to get my Christmas bonus, then ate and I went to SM in the afternoon. Shopped for a bit. Bought a dress that I would wear for Kuya Bob and Ate Che's wedding on the 29th, ate dinner at Mister DOnut, then watched Segunda Mano. It wasn't really THat scary, but the story was good so I enjoyed it.

On the 27th,well, I just stayed at home. Hehe.

On the 28th, I went out with my HS friends,Kaye,Millete and Glena. played bowling at Centermall, ate lunch at Jack's, went rollerblading at Burnham, went to SM, sang at Quantum, then on our way out, saw Jasper, so all of us went to Cafe by the Ruins for merienda. Lots of pictures taken! Weee. Super enjoyed this day..

Tomorrow, will head off to Villasis for Kuya Bob and Ate Che's wedding.

I don't know when will I go down to Pampanga, but I'll definitely spend my New Year's Eve and New Year's Day there. Will be updating you soon. I promise. Haha.

Maybe on 2012, I would update this beloved blog every day. I won't promise, but I'll try. Hihi. :)

Catch you later then!

Back!

Wow. It's been like months.. Haha. Let me update you once again. A lot of things happened since the last time that I wrote something here. So I really don't know where to start. Anyway, yeah, there was some kind of a BIG CHANGE in my life right now. Maybe the ones who are really close to me will be the only ones who would get what I mean. Haha!

Hmm. Well, let's just try to begin.. once again.
Now, I'm back to SOESL again. ^^ I'm also working as an Instructor in MMSDTC.
I love my two jobs! :) Even though it's kinda tiring sometimes, whenever I remind myself that I love what I'm doing, the exhaustion all goes away. But honestly, I really do. Even I do not have much free time during the weekdays, I feel blessed to have this kind of opportunity. I think I was really born to teach. I believe it's my calling. Kkk. ^^;

What else? Ah! Millete actually invited Kaye, Glena and I to join their Lakbay Aral in Manila TOMORROW. I'm still thinking if I'm gonna join the trip or not. I really want to! But then I have to be absent on Friday. Hmm.. Not sure what to do. Anyway, I'll just ask my sister if she's gonna let me go to the trip. I hope she does.

Then, on Saturday, Aldrien and I will be watching the movie Beastly. I hope it's good! It's part of my movie list..so I hope it won't disappoint me.

I think that's it for now. I'll just update you again when I have the time..and when I'm in the mood to write. Bye for now! :D

update!

Okay.sorry my dear blog for not updating you for so long.
it's just that,I'm not always in the mood to write.Haha..

Anyway..since I haven't made even a single entry last August, nothing much really happened while I was recalling it. It was my last month at the Emergency Room. It was memorable..and I really miss it!

We had a graduation party last September 3.A day before that, I went out with Janessa..she had eyelash extensions, while I had a haircut at Tony and Jackey.. then we walked around SM and Porta Vaga to look for clothes. Then the day after, that was it. The farewell party..It was in Cobalt Auditorium. Just like what happened during the kick off party, it was pretty much the same. music.dance.food.and booze! haha.. at around 7pm, we decided to have an after-party at Hex Bar owned by Melvin's brother. I went home at 12mn..

Hmm..what else..what else..Ah! I had korean drama marathon. haha.. I watched He is Beautiful and Shining Inheritance. I like the latter more..Then I dunno when was that, it was last week I guess, after waking up, ate asked me to buy Korean food for lunch so I went to La Azotea to buy stir fried pork and squid, then headed to Hodori to order for kimchi fried rice and bulgogi.It was really deliciousss!!

these days..most of the time, I just stay at home.. because, I'm too lazy to go out..and I don't want to spend much too..and also one of the reason is, I don't have someone to go out with. So facebook and TV are my bestfriends.. Haha..

Last Saturday, I went out around 2:30 to watch Resident Evil 3D alone. yes. alone.. Then at the middle of the movie, Carlo texted me and told me his class just finished and enjoy the movie..etc.. So, after the movie, I decided just to walk around SM before going home. But then, I received another unexpected message. He was asking me where I was saying he's also there. I was really surprised..I wasn't really ready to meet him..because of my messy hair! haha..argh..anyway, I had no choice. I want to meet him too anyway. So there. After walking around SM looking for a place where we could eat, we both agreed to dine at Vizco's since I was craving for the strawberry shortcake.. Then, we just talked ..and talked..and talked..until finally, at around 7pm, we went home. I was soooooooo happy that day.:)

Then the day after, I woke up very early for our swimming trip. Janice, Reyn, Iwi and I went to Neverland..the newly opened resort in Asin Rd. At first,the sun was on its peak so we just talked and shared stories by the pool side. Then just before 12 noon, it was a bit cloudy so the three decided to swim. I don't want to, because i don't want to get tan. haha.. So I just watched them, while deciding if I'm going to try the zipline or not. Then, Rein also came. So, there was the five of us. It was really fun! :) In the afternoon, I finally decided to conquer my fear, so I tried the zipline ride. At first, I was soooo damn scared, but when I was finally in the air, it wasn't that scary anymore. If only I wasn't holding my camera, I would've spread my hands to feel like I was flying. I loved it..!!Then, we had pictorials on the way back to the swimming pool. haha.. crazy shots and poses everywhere but they were all worth it! Then, at around 4, we went back home. We waited for almost an hour, but there were no jeepneys available.Good thing, a good family let us in their van that's why we had a ride back home. It was sooo tiring but the experience was all worth it. ^^;

Then, Sept.13, Monday, I woke up early to apply for a job. It was kinda frustrating because there were a lot of applicants so the chances of me,being hired were lessened..anyhow, I'm still hopeful that I can get the position I applied for.I have to!I really do.. I just hope I'd be given the chance. Please.please.please....:)

After that, since it was still early and I had nowhere to go, I just went to a hair salon to let my dead hair be fixed. haha.. Then, I met up with Ken and accompanied him in getting his NBI clearance. We both were hungry so we ate at Tokyo Tokyo after. Then, Janessa arrived. We then strolled around SM..we went back to NBI for Ken's clearance..then, walked down to Porta Vaga to get my ID pictures..and then, headed back again to SM.haha.. Ooh.we also saw Reyn and Iwi on the way so I had the chance to get our swimming pictures from Reyn. At around 5pm, we had coffee at Starbucks, and I ordered for my favorite Strawberries and Creme frappuccino. I even saw Elaine..my childhood bestfriend..Then, it suddenly rained so we decided to stroll again. We looked for clothes. Ken bought a shirt at Bench. It was already 7pm, so we decided to go home.

Then today, I went out to take my exam. While waiting for a ride, a car suddenly stopped. It was Jeff. He was also planning to apply to the company where I applied, so I accompanied him first in sending his resume, then he gave me a ride back to town. After that, I went home.

Ahh.... this is the moment where I have to wait and wait again..I just hope that this week, I'll be receiving a good news. Oh please Lord.. Give it to me..I badly badly need it... :(

sad truth.

you know what hurts the most?
it's when you don't even bother.
it's when you say you care, yet you don't even show it.
it's when you think i'm special to you, yet you don't even let me feel it.
it's when i assume, everything is okay between us..
or..we're already getting there..
yet when i stop and reflect,
in reality, there is really nothing that we hold in our hands.
we're still...and will always be friends,after all.

fun day again! :)

went out with shingshing today. i missed her soooo much so it was really fun having the chance to spend time with her again..we watched karate kid, then, walked..and walked.. then, had dinner at Vizco's.took wacky shots. shared stories. had a lot of fun today! :) love my 2 days off. enjoyed it sooo much! hihihi..

happy day! ^_^

movie.picture.3D glasses.takoyaki.umbrella.long walk.hug.+ him= happy day. :)

fun!

duty last night was so benign again. I was assigned at the Pedia unit.I never thought it would be that much fun as I expected. I only had one admission though.. I was happy coz I was able to successfully insert an IV line to a baby! that was a first! yeee! i also realized it feels good to be kind to others. (huh? hahaha~ i dunno. last night, i was just in the mood to be nice to all. ^_~).. then, I handled a very cute baby.he's 10 months old. he was just so adorable! His parents were nice too. His dad even gave me a pack of bread. Hehe. While we were just waiting for patients to come, Jessa and I..ajust had a loooong conversation...like, we just talked about anything under the moon. and just exchanged stories when we were still teaching Koreans. we both missed our students..and we both craved for Korean food! Haha.. hmm.. I'mma see tomorrow if I can buy some kimbap! I sooo want to eat some right now..

Anyway, after our duty, my groupmates and I had breakfast at 50's diner. I had banana split and pancakes. Oooh..too much sweets for one meal. good thing I had my medicine with me. Then after that, we went home. I really had a very looong sleep coz I already woke up at around 5pm. That was my first time to sleep that long coz usually, I only have 3-4 hours of sleep in the morning. Hehe. But I'm fully recharged now so I'm all good.

So excited for tomorrow coz Sheng and I are going out in the afternoon. Weee! Can't wait to watch a movie and hangout with my friend again. :)

reunited.

I had a duty last night with the other group since I didn't have duty today because of lola's despidida party. Anyway, I enjoyed it a lot since I really miss my old groupmates most especially Reyn, Janice, Weng and Alger. I also had fun during the convo that I had with them, together with Iwi and Hardy. It seems that last night was the most benign duty I ever had! There were only few patients that's why I really got bored. Sometimes, if you're so used to being busy and all, it's like you already hate doing nothing. I think it's also a good thing. Haha.. It was also my first time to sleep during a night duty, so it was all good. After our duty, together with Reyn, Janice and Alger, we went to 7/11 to grab a munch and talk about stuffs and differences with the other fellows. Anyway, I just hope that everythin will be okay soon, and that next month or in the future, we would all be together again. Ugh.. I really miss them. :(

Okay. So today, I didn't do anything actually. Haha. After getting up from a 4-hour sleep, I directly went infront of the computer to surf the net. And after that, ate and I went to Irisan for dinner coz lola and Kuya Ned will be leaving tomorrow for the US.I hope they'll have a safe trip.

Upon arriving at home, I really wanted to go to the night market to buy some clothes so kuya went with me. I was able to buy some good clothes at a cheap price. I love the 2 jackets that I bought! Worth the money. Hihihi.. I'm actually planning to go to ukay again tomorrow to shop...let's see if I'm in the mood to go out. Hehe..
Well..I think I need to since I need to get my braces adjusted already. Oh my..another 1K off my purse. Huhu..

Oh, what else?! Okay. got no more news to share. Let's see in the upcoming days what interesting things might just happen. Looking forward for a beautiful week ahead!:)

p.s. I bought 2 DVDs. Chloe and Valentine's Day..but since it's already late, maybe I'm just gonna watch em tomorrow.:)

T_T

have you ever had the feeling like everyone around you seems to be moving forward, while there you are, stuck in a place you don't want to be, yet couldn't even do anything about it?! that's exactly how i'm feeling right now and it sucks big time.
:(

i have one! FINALLY!

i finally bought a PSP!!! Now, i don't need to think at night whether to buy one or not. haha! But..Oh my. got No more money! Waaaaaaah!

what's new?

i got lazy to update my blog again! haha.. oh well..ok ok. i'll do it now.it's time to share some news.

hmm. where will I start? .....Ah! I've enjoyed our duty today. I was the head nurse. At first I thought it was going to be stressful, but it wasn't really much as I expected. Everything went well. I just felt a lil sad because our next duty will be our last since our group will be reshuffled. huhu..T_T.. I dunno. I already felt comfortable with my groupmates that's why it's hard to adjust to a new group again. I just hope everything will be okay in time.

Oh..yesterday, I was supposed to go out but I didn't because it was raining hard. That's why I just stayed at home. I was happy to read the email of my former favorite students, Kyla and Sophie. I miss them soooo much....

Then today, ate made some reservation for our Hongkong trip on September. even though it's a long wait, it's worth the long time because at least I have something to look forward to after finishing my ER module. It's time for me to relax and enjoy! I've waited for this to happen so I really really can't wait!!! Hihihi ^_____^

So far, that's all I can share.. hmm.. yep. update you soon anyway! :P